I found this thread just now and after reading through the translation my heart breaks for this person.
https://www.reddit.com/r/SingaporeRaw/comments/pd203h/-/han1god
There have been a few depressive posts on vlr, kbkdark was in a dark spot and Stax_rb_op made a pretty worrying post a few weeks ago.
I just want to say it's not worth it man, don't go through with it and don't be afraid to reach out to someone if you ever feel depressed. The world is tough but you don't have to brave it alone. Nothing on vlr, Valorant, even the Internet, matters when it comes to protecting your own mental health.
Stay strong guys.