This is good.
The thing I've been struggling with is loneliness. I know alot of people in my life and have so many friends and have a great family but theres something thats always missing. Some kind of emptiness that just constantly stresses me out and ruins my mood. It only really goes away when i drink or smoke but then it feels like I'm a coward running away. I need therapy but I'm so busy nowadays it’s impossible.
And the whole situation with DSBY got me thinking, that in my life he is just a random dude on the internet but it still so sad to think about the fact that life can fade away so fast. This is not the first time this happened on vlr either. Suicidal ideation is a serious problem and people sideline it to attention farming when its clearly a symptom of something worse.