I AM BACK

who?

I've become so much like Shoya Ishida it's scary. I wear a black t-shirt, don't socially interact with anyone, and always imagine an 'X' symbol on the faces of people. When I look in the mirror and into the reflection of my eyes, I can't help but feel ashamed of my sinful past and sign the words " 友達になれますか "( which means 'Can we be friends ' in Japanese). I made sure to learn to sign language as a form of atonement which had the consequence of me moving my hands every time I talked but I don't care about what other people think of me SO SHUT THE FUCK UP KAWAII! I always use my hands to close my ears and look down at the ground in a manner that is seen by everyone so they are reminded that I am not in control. When I see my childhood classmates during walks I get mad at them for not being as remorseful as I am. I can't have sex with my girlfriend anymore without forcing her to dress up as Shoko or Ueno, both of whom just remind me of Tomohiro. When I enter an amusement park and go to a stall to buy fast food, I refuse to interact with the vendor and immediately leave the vicinity as that person reminds me of my once childhood friend, Kazuki Shimada. Then when I finally manage to order fast food, I refuse to call them french fries and insist on calling them friendship fries. I just keep moving forward towards that bridge near Nishimiya's school, once every Tuesday.

nice to meet you