I am not joking , I really don't feel good , not physically but mentally , past few months i haven't done much productive work , I have lost some important friendships as well tho I don't want to blame my inefficiency on those stuff, I have gotten myself into bad habits and procrastination, my University is coming up and I don't think I am gonna do that well in them , my parents and my relatives think I will do good but they don't know i have been distracted for the past few months, I feel like a failure and feel paralyzed to even start working , i am failing myself and my parents and everyone who believes in me, I am doing no good, I am just wasting my time here and there and am never learning from my mistakes, I feel like an actual POS , i have never hit this low in life , I am full of guilt due to my past actions and too afraid abt thr future i don't know whether I would do good in the future or not , I am a train wreck.