i read your post about having a mentally ill father, and after all the disrespect you have gotten on this site, i would like to apologize even though i don't think i've participated in any activity that involved hating on you.
i understand that you're going through tough times now, and i myself am going through a really really tough time right now but i'm 1000% certain that you have it harder than i do right now.
it may be easy to say that things will be alright even when it doesn't feel like it. i promise you that it will. i don't wanna bring up religion/belief but i really beg you to have at least someone or a higher being to lean on. someone that you can tell your thoughts to, out loud.
i'll be praying for you man, i hope everything goes well for you.