VLR is definitely not the place to say this but it is the only forum I use so fuck it.
Always had trouble making friends and spent the first decade of my life without any. I feel like I am a bit of an odd person and I am not able to hold conversations so I set it down to that. Finally got friends and felt I fit in. Recently though, I've realized they really do not give a fuck about me. They don't invite me anywhere. They don't talk to me unless I talk to them. They don't listen to me when I speak. These are people I grew up with and went to school with, but as soon as school ended for me and I went on my own way, they don't care. They make no effort to talk to me or reach out to me in any way.
With all of that, I realized I am genuinely more happy when I am alone. If people will treat me like that, it is better to be alone than have "friends" who want nothing to do with me.