Bro... chill out 😓
I've passed for things like this like 8 months ago (unfortunatelly mods deleted my post about it) and some ppl here helped me a lot, also, go after some professional help, and you'll be okay after a while. Don't give up, stand up and fight!
Life sucks sometimes, but it's just a phase my man... You'll pass through it and still have a good life! ❤❤