Tldr= can't swim in a 2m pool need advice. Entire situation mentioned below.
I started a thread about this and it was deleted. It was probably deleted because I was having a breakdown and thus used the wrong words to describe what was going on. Lemme explain my situation in a better way.
Idk how to swim properly. Can't float properly in water and stuff. So my father signed me to this place where there's a 2m pool which goes deeper till 5.5m. I can't even float in the 2m pool (even with the air tube thingies on my upper arms) without drinking the entire pool (felt like I was about to drown).There's no one there to teach me how to swim cuz the life guards speak a different language and the same with the instructors. My father managed to convince one of the instructors to teach me and I gotta go there at 2pm today and its 4:50am right now. I cant even sleep rn. Its gonna be so awkward and I probably wouldnt learn anything cuz of the language barrier. And I dont even have an option rn to learn to swim or even float in a shallow pool cuz there aint one and this membership expensive af. If I skip, my father's definitely not gonna be happy. I tried to watch videos on YouTube but I cant get rid of the fear cuz I have never stepped in a deeper pool. It feels so scary when my feet wont touch the ground(base) of the swimming pool. Need some advice. And also I gotta be shirtless in the pool.(makes me feel uncomfortable)